Role Reversal

Why do I have to be subjugated in proportion or relation to his ability to control or exercise his own personal, sexual, sensual freedom?  

If I take the role which he held for the larger portion of our relationship, am I incongruous with the trajectory of our relationship?

Or is he reluctant to acquiesce his perceived position?  Should our relationship be determined by his sense of propriety which is relative to his abilities?  

If I am setting a new pace, should I restrain my enthusiasm not only because he has slowed, but because he is reluctant to allow or acknowledge my new potential?  

When he flew, I was exhausted, but I desired and emulated him enough to attempt to keep up, or overlook the freedoms he took at my personal and emotional expense which were not always compliant with the perceived parameters of our relationship. 

Now, when or if he is not prepared to do the same, should I invest myself again in the relationship for him to reap the primary dividend again at the expense of my personal growth?

07 March, 2010